Friday, January 9, 2009

some prayers answered

Okay, so we have made some progress the latter half of the week.

Brian and I met for about 2-1/2 hours yesterday with his employer understand this voluntary package and what it means for us. They had just received word that those on short term leave were eligible which is why they called us and wanted us to know about the package. They had an obligation to ensure we were aware, but the deadlines were already in place. Thanks to their time and efforts, I feel very informed to make an informed and detailed decision. It is a great package for anyone close to retiring or anyone that was considering changing employers or has something else in the works or was considering leaving the company anyway. It makes incredible sense for us if we think Brian would not survive the year. About this time next year, it breaks even for us and becomes a bad decision after about one year. So, basically taking the package means betting against Brian's survival in so many words. We have decided to put our names in as eligible knowing we have some time to take our names out. If we didn't put our names in as eligible by Monday, it would not be an option at all. This gives us some time to monitor Brian's progress and make some decisions based on that. If we get some devastating test results, knowing we are down to our last treatment option, that would lead us toward taking the package. If not, I personally, would not bet against Brian at any point in time. While we have never talked to his doctor about exactly how long he expected Brian to survive, I would venture to guess he is surprised to see Brian still kicking it as he is. Who are any of us to assume how long he will continue to do exactly that?

Regardless, we have a few more weeks to think about it. If Brian deteriorates in that time, this could be the answer to some more financial security for me and the boys. If he does not, then it could be the answer to his healing. Regardless, it is a prayer answered in some way.

That being said, we have also made progress with the chemotherapy. Not to bore you with the details, but some angels that I don't want to mention because they are doing us a large favor are making it happen and we are extremely grateful. Brian will undergo chemo this Monday - Avastin and Carboplatin. We are paying for some of it out of pocket, but our portion is very affordable so far. The insurance won't budge. At this point in time, it doesn't matter, though. That prayer has been answered.

Brian is doing okay. We have had to have some very difficult discussions regarding his condition, his outcome and our feelings about the future. It is difficult and emotional, but we both know that we have to think both ways and be as objective as we can about what will happen if he survives or if he doesn't.

Brian's right side seems to be getting just a tad weaker. He is starting to fall or nearly fall more and more. Walking is becoming more challenging at times. He is way too proud to use any sort of assistive device, though. I respect whatever he wants as long as he is safe. I am so thankful for the disabled parking placard. It has really helped a lot these last few months. He pushes through all of this, though, with a good attitude.

We switched his anti-seizure medication from generic to name brand again. Brian has had no vomiting and little feelings of dizziness since Sunday. We made the switch on Tuesday. So, this is very encouraging. This is a prayer answered.

I have been so much more at peace the last couple days. That is a prayer answered.

Thank you to those joining us in prayer.

KEEP BELIEVING

14 comments:

  1. Always in our prayers...thankful to hear that you are feeling more at peace this week. I will continue to pray more specifically for you both!!
    Ashley

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  2. Praise the Lord for answers to prayer. You guys have been on my mind and heart a lot, especially lately and the urge to pray for you guys is very strong. I was so glad to hear that you didn't have to make any hasty decisions for Monday regarding the buyout package and that it can still possibly be an option if need be. I am personally hoping that you won't need that option! Praise the Lord for angels coming through for you in the chemotherapy department and I will be praying that it is efective for Brian. Thank you for continuing to post updates so that we know how to support you guys in prayer. Still believing in miracles!

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  3. Still believing for a miracle!

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  4. I am so glad God provided some answers this week and that he has given you peace. I am continuing to pray for you guys!

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  5. You sound at peace with some of the tough decisions you have had to face this week. Great news about Chemo starting on Monday. May it help Brian with his fight and keep the doctors believing in miracles.
    Gretchen

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  6. It helps so much to have a plan of action to at least begin on. I am thankful for your peace and hope it continues.

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  7. Hey Angie, Wonderful to get this update. Am praying James 1:5, that God will give you wisdom generously, just as He promises, as you make this crucial decision. So glad that Brian's vomiting has lessoned. Will be praying with you through the chemo. Love, Shawn in TN

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  8. You know I'm praying for you, hon. Try to stay positive. You are inspirational for all of us.

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  9. It sounds like you're running in a direction and that's a good thing. You're all in my thoughts and prayers...as always. Hugs.

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  10. Love, peace, prayers your way. xoxo.

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  11. It was Great to Brian in the Office. The place isn't the same without him!!

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  12. After being off line for 5 weeks it is wonderful to see how your prayers and ours are being answered. The first religious saying that I learned is "God is Love". I can see that you and all your family and friends are leaning on this promise.

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  13. Angie- I love your honest frank nature. You were always just like that when we were roomies! I wish I lived closer so I could help you in some way, but it sounds like you have a great support network! Keep praying and believing, and I will add your family to my prayers!

    Jill

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