Sunday, June 21, 2009

FatherLESS Day

Dear Brian,

Today is another big FIRST.

It is easier to prepare and tense up for a big blow you know is coming and brace your self to endure the anticipated pain from it than it is an unexpected flick on the ear.

So it is not these big events - these MONUMENTAL 'firsts" that are so difficult to endure. It is the small unexpected events in life - like seeing your favorite CINNAMON LIFE in the cereal section and realizing I am wiping a tear from eye in the next aisle - a tear I didn't even know surfaced.

Today on this first Father's Day without you, Brian. We celebrate your memory. We celebrate YOUR Dad. We celebrate your brothers. And I celebrate my boys - because I see parts of you in all of them.

And I know the Dad that you were to our children in their young years WILL mold them into wonderful big kids, young men, and responsible adults.



  1. praying for you today. Do you think you could share a friendship with another young woman whose husband was just killed by a falling tree branch if you can believe that. I don't know was just thinking about it.

  2. Dear Angie - I am praying for you on this day and for your boys. They had such a wonderful father who loved them so much. It is lovely to see the photos you posted which show just the kind of father Brian was. I am so happy to hear that you are celebrating Brian's memory.

  3. wow! those are great pictures!!! he's looking over yall today!

  4. AnonymousJune 21, 2009


    So much love in those photos. I'm so glad you took them. The boys will treasure them for years to come.

    I hope you do something nurturing for yourself today, sweet lady.

  5. Celebrating will make all the difference for you and the boys. These pictures are such a treasure.

  6. AnonymousJune 21, 2009

    Your boys are so very lucky to have had such a wonderful dad! Even though he was taken away much too young the strength and courage he showed was so great and will never be forgotten. And just remember no one can everrrrrrrrrrrr take away your memories. Much love to you all!!!
    John and Nancy Piccatto and family

  7. Wow! What wonderful pics of Brian and the boys! Thinking of you on this sad and hard day.

  8. Thinking of you today...

  9. DianaCookJune 21, 2009

    Praying for you this day - seeing these pictures help me to know this man I've never met, just a little bit. Looks like he was an awesome dad! Thanks for sharing!

  10. Great pictures. Thanks for sharing them with us.

    I agree. Although the firsts are hard and hard to get through the unexpected tears are so so much worse. I remember right after Shawn died one of his favorite video games was released. I really thought nothing about it. However,I walked into the store, saw the sign for the game and had tears in my eyes in the middle of the store. It took my breath away and made me hurt that I wouldn't be buying that for him this year.

    Thinking and praying for you.

  11. What a handsome man Brian is. Praying for you today, sweet Angie. I love what the Bible says about the legacy of a man who loves Jesus Christ:

    But from everlasting to everlasting the Lord's love is with those who fear Him and His righteousness with their children's children--with those who obey Him and remember to keep His precepts. Psalm 103:17-18

    Cling today that truth, Angie, as you rejoice over your boys having such an awesome daddy. Brian's life will continue to impact them greatly. Our heavenly Father is keeping you, Gavin, and Grant as the apple of His eye.

    Love--Shawn from TN

  12. I have been following your story since Stephanne Burkemper posted it on her blog. You are an amazing woman! Your honesty is so courageous. I lost my father to cancer when I was a teenager, so I can empathize with all the emotions. It never goes away, but time does make it easier. The way you express yourself in your posts gives me goosebumps. Keep up the good work!
    Angie Mylenbusch from MO

  13. Those firsts are always tough but you are exactly right - it is the sideswipes that floor you. Holding you in the light as always.

  14. what a beautiful & moving post. Thank you for sharing yourself in such an honest & touching way.

  15. AnonymousJune 27, 2009

    Hey Angie - I think about every single one of you every single day. Love, hugs, and prayers - Karye

  16. Still praying for you daily---think of you so often and always check your blog. I hope each day you're getting stronger and do hope all of you have a wonderful 4th of July.
    Hugs and prayers,
    Sugar in New Orleans

  17. Just wanted to say hello. Check on you guys everyday. I am guessing your doing a little hibernating. Just wanted to let you know that there are people thinking about you everyday! Love and hugs...

  18. Wanted to check in and see how you were doing. This diary of memories and photos will be a treasure for your boys someday.