Saturday, April 5, 2008

Our Life Contradicts, beautifully

As you can tell, I have been pretty pensive this week. Mood swings rivaling Faye Dunnaway in Mommy Dearest have plagued me. As we await test results next week, I spend a lot of time thinking. I think a lot about life. I think a lot about the cards with which we as a family have been dealt. I am up and I am down. I usually come to no conclusions except that my life is a bit of an oxymoron, a beautiful oxymoron.

I am a mother of two, yet I have never given birth. Adoption is beautiful.

I have a college degree and years of experience that I do not currently use, yet I am performing the most challenging and rewarding job I have ever filled right here at home. Parenting is beautiful.

I have a husband who was told by several doctors 11 years ago he would not be alive today, yet today he lives. God’s grace is beautiful.

Brian lost years of job promotions and opportunities due to his illness causing us to make tens of thousand less than his peers, yet he has a job that sustains us on our one income. Living within your means is beautiful.

I may not have tomorrow with my husband, yet I have today. Realizing the value of time is beautiful.

We are an unlikely and unrelated group of 4, yet we are a family. Life is beautiful.
KEEP BELIEVING

21 comments:

  1. I want you to know that you inspire me with your posts - to look at life in a different light! Thank you for that!

    This is a beautiful post! You are a beautiful person with a beautiful family!

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  2. Wow, Angie, This blog you posted feels so good I just can't descibe it. I could try it in Dutch : It gives 'Troost'. Keep Believing, we keep you in our prayers, more even this coming week. God Bless.

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  3. I am struggling to help one my dearests friends deal with the impending death of her 46 year old husband from cancer.

    Our hope is that he makes it until June to see his 18 and 13 year old daughters graduate from high school and middle school respectively.

    You help me help her more than you can every know.

    I will keep my fingers crossed for good test results.

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  4. Angie,

    You put things into perspective so eloquently. You are a true example of hope. I am sorry that your cards have been so difficult, but I thank you for teaching us something - what really matters. It is the love of family that truly sustains us.

    You are gift to your husband, your family, and all of us. Thank you!

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  5. And you have me crying and smiling...

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  6. Your blog is one that is difficult for me to read because it makes me realize all the things I may be grumpy or frustrated about are a pittance compared to what you have to deal with.

    Oh yeah, that's exactly why I read your blog... because it makes me realize that all my problems are trivial. Thanks for all your words of wisdom.

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  7. LIfe is beautiful, never perfect, but beautiful.
    Your words are life-giving, Angie.
    I'm praying for you and Brian each and every day.

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  8. That's very sweet.

    I think everyone should learn to enjoy every moment. You never know when an accident might happen and take someone away from you.

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  9. YOU are beautiful. I am continuing to pray for your whole family.

    Keep believing, sweety, keep believing!

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  10. KEEP BELIEVING Angie... I am!

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  11. You blog is beautiful! Your writing speaks right to my heart. Thank you for sharing. May God bless this journey you are on and bring healing upon you dear hubby.

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  13. Thanks for sharing another beautiful post Angie. You inspire so many of us and you shoot straight to the heart. Just as Beth said...YOU are a beautiful person, so is Brian, so is Gavin and so is Grant. Thank you for sharing your thoughts with us.

    Sorry about the deleted comment...too many spelling mistakes while I was attempting to type quickly!

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  14. Now that was beautiful. I am praying for good results Wednesday, which is also the day my SIL goes in for her sonogram, hoping to see a heartbeat and not have four miscarriages in a row. This entry you just did can fit into all of our lives.

    It may not of been how we would of picked our life if we could, but it was handed to us for a reason and finding that reason in Christ is beautiful.

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  15. i find that my three children and i, while i did give birth to them, feel like an unlikely group of four too. but still...a family.

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  16. What great observations of your life...you are blessed! :)

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  17. Well said!! You are amazing!

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  18. be-A-utiful you! God blessed you w/ a journey in which our need for Him is undeniable. BELIEVING in Him and YOU!

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  19. Amen.

    Beautifully said.

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  20. Life is beautiful, as are you my friend.

    Your perspective is inspiration from above.

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  21. You are a beautiful soul Angie and this post makes it beam as if I was looking at the sun.

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