Tuesday, March 9, 2010

1 year ago

Been flooded with "1 year ago" thoughts the last month.

Like the last soccer game Brian was ever able to attend. I don't remember it, but i know it was in February some time.

Like the last time he left the house - it was to go to Buffalo Wild Wings, enjoy a couple microbrews and some wings, and his entire family - brothers, wives, parents, nephews and nieces - were there. It was so windy he could barely walk in the door. He could barely walk anyway. That was March 8, 2009. It was also the last night we would ever sleep together.

March 9, 2009 was the last morning he ever woke in our bedroom. He came down the stairs, went to sit in a kitchen chair, fell, and never walked up or down those stairs again.

March 9, 2009 was the first day of the week leading up to his death.

It was the strangest week of my life. So many blessings. So many regrets.

I can't stop thinking about it.



  1. And even though there are painful memories, there are sweet ones as well, I'm sure. Hold onto those memories.

  2. And we won't stop thinking of you.

  3. Retain all the memories and dwell most on the good memories. Your memories will always be with you. Share the good ones with the boyz.
    Karen W. in S.W. OH

  4. Thinking of you Angie.......and still praying.

  5. Aargh. Hugs, hugs, hugs to you today...and tomorrow...and...

  6. My heart is heavy for you. You are in my thoughts and I'm praying.

  7. The anniversaries are so difficult. I know you will make it to the other side just a little bit stronger.

  8. All the anniversaries are a hard. If it's any reassurance to you the days leading up to the one year anniversary of Shawn's death were actually harder days than than the actual one year mark. I really don't know what it was but for some reason on the one year mark I had a feeling of peace. I mean it was an awful day, but not as bad as I thought it was going to be.

    Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. Remember that you are so strong, and you will get through this. I'm here if you want to talk.

  9. Angie know you are not alone...we will be thinking with you. Lifting you up in prayer for extra strength at this memory time.

  10. Angie, I can only imagine what you've gone through in the past five years. Loved your Grant posts too... you have two very very lucky boys, their mom is amazing.

    Happy B-day to the little man. :-)

  11. Hugs...been thinking about you and praying! Love, Karye